Good god! I'd prefer to be fucked with a knife and no lube
Fuck, use lemon juice and battery acid, if it means none of this. The only thing more torturous is being forced to learn Grammer!
Do you have
dyscalculia? It's a math based learning disorder.
If it's any consolation, there are plenty of things that I'm bad at that many people seem to have natural abilities at. For instance, I have a motor planning disorder that makes it hard to articulate my body correctly.
Anyway, sorry for getting off topic. Mouse, I will take a look at your work when I have more time.